Feelings at this moment
Hi
It is Monday morning 10.15, I am looking through my groups and posts
as I do most mornings, while having my coffee. So what???
I don’t have a cigarette in my hand!!!!! And at this precise moment
I don’t care. I have been out with the dogs earlier and stood on
the field and just breathed, deep and slow, it is surprising how
relaxing it felt, I don’t think I have ever tried breathing like that
before. So I am off to do my housework now and will keep you all
posted.
Bye for now
Lynne
March 13th, 2003 at 12:02 pm
Great to see all the posts when I got home and logged in to the
Ann glad that helped, about being `ok’ to think about cigs at this
Marde
site. Sorry I couldn’t stay in Chat long last night past midnight
my time and I had a 3.5 hours exam this morning which REALLY hurt my
brain cog thinking is a breeze in comparison
point.
Kalah - you said
“Although I am rendered nearly “inarticulate” thus far (these
<nearly
Yep at 6 days quit the oxygen was still rushing to my brain and I
rambled pretty incoherently. As it gets used to a steady supply of
oxygen instead of carbon monoxide and other toxic stuff it can be
like that. It does get easier, honest, as the brain fog (normal and
expected part of detox) clears. Welcome aboard.
Becky wrote
“WOW!!!!!! I am so impressed with all of this……..you really have
got me thinking!! ”
Excellent! Steve is doing a great job, getting you to really think
about your feelings and what those craves really are about. That’s
what it’s all about thinking about things you never really noticed
before makes your brain hurt eh? Well worth it, I promise you.
Kelley - quite agree with you when you said
“It is fascinating to me that our minds just automatically want a cig
because it has been the “cure all” for so many years! Wow! ”
That’s so right. All my life I reached for a cig to to deal with
whatever was hurting, ailing and pleasing me. Learning how to
separate out those feelings and disconnect them from cigs is a
fascinating process. Just this morning after my exam I had
that `wow I could usesomething’ feeling. It’s the first exam I’ve
taken since I quit 9 months ago, and the first time I didn’t reach
for a cig. Being coached in the cog approach meant that I instantly
knew that what I actually could use was a cup of coffee and a walk
around the block that actually I was dehydrated and needed to
stretch my legs. I didn’t need to sit down and decode it - Warren
had done that for me. You’ll soon start doing this yourself.
Lynne talked about having been out exercising and dogs, and :-
“stood on the field and just breathed, deep and slow, .. surprising
how relaxing it felt”.
Isn’t it just! Half the time when I went outside or wherever and had
a deep drag on a cig it was actually about needing to take a deep
breath to relax. Unfortunately I couldn’t disconnect that need with
drawing on a cig at that time. Great that you’re feeling the
benefits already and I’m not surprised you didn’t `need’ a cig
afterwards
Great suggestions from you :-
“I had a few suggestions for driving. Try something different than
you usually do ;change radio stations, try audio books, sing, listen
to something you can really jam to. ”
I did that sort of thing too changing all the old routines, put new
ones in place, and that helped a lot. I made sure the ashtray had
been scrubbed out, and I put some scented pot pourri in there to make
the car smell even nicer.
I love `chipping in’ and helping where I can. I love seeing
the ‘aha!’ as the cog thinking really starts to kick in, because I
remember how exciting that was for me too - and still is. But I can
see you’re all really taking cog quitting to heart and using what
Steve’s teaching you to good effect. Keep practising Pat and I
will keep telling you how, truthfully, quitting this way is going to
benefit you in so many other ways.
Oh did I say I was 9 months quit? I am in 5 days time, on the
24th, this Saturday she said, subtley, hoping someone will raise a
glass of mineral water, bubbly etc to cheer loudly.;)
take care, all
Pam