Cognitive Quit Smoking

Well let me see if I have got this right?
If I have a desire to smoke its due to a feeling which is created by a
thought or is it a thought which is created by a feeling.
We have been here before and a cig was the solution!!!!
So now I make a list of alternative solutions and decide which one to choose.
Sometimes I can plan ahead for events and create my ready made list of
responses!
Well I guess I should have thought of that yesterday cos if I had I wouldn’t
be sitting here feeling angry, disappointed, uncared for, unloved and all
sorts of other feelings which in the past were good reasons to smoke.
Now as a non-smoker I have to think of other responses and quite honestly
there are none. None that will change how I feel, none that will make me
feel any better (other than perhaps intravenous brandy in one arm and
intravenous valium in the other).
I’ve got 4 children, 3 stepchildren a husband, lots of grandchildren and

today is my birthday.
I woke up to 3 birthday cards so DH ran up to paper shop to get me one as he
had forgotten.
So went online expecting to get some ecards but not one - hence the feelings.
Guess what I am trying to say is that life happens whether I like it or not
and that I will have feelings which I do not like and which nothing will
change. Even when I smoked the feelings would still be there and it was just
my addictive beleif that smoking helped with them.
So what am I going to do - well Steve this is the scenario so I could really
do with you helping me out with an abc here.
Its my birthday and 3 of my kids have forgotten which makes feel unloved and
uncared for. DH hasn’t bought me a present or planned to take me out and my
best friend has obviously forgotten.
I can accept that this is the way they are - they always forget my birthday
so why should this year be any different and it always makes me feel unloved
and uncared for even when I smoked.
Choices - I can dwell on feeling sorry for myself
Shrug my shoulders and ‘know’ that they do love me and everyone is different
- not everyone is a card person like me.
Be especially good to me today to celebrate in my own way
Acknowledge the feelings and accept that I do have a desire to smoke
I’m not sure which choice I am going to make yet cos its still early and I
need to give it some thought but I know it will not be a choice to return to
smokingl.
Catch up with you all later maybe
Namaste
Indi

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