Cognitive Quit Smoking

Well everyone I got through a really productive day at work and came home
stress free thanks to Steve and his help with getting some ABC’s into place.
You all know I’ve been having a hard time at work lately and for three weeks
I am in sole charge of a company. Now its not a multi million dollar company
but its my ‘friends’ company and I am an over conscientious person anyway who
doesn’t like to ‘fail’ or admit ‘I’m not superwoman’.
Managed to chat with Steve about it last night cos I’ve also been having
problems with this ‘hole’ thing inside that I haven’t been able to figure out
what it is.
First of all I put it down to side effects of zyban - so stopped the zyban.
Then I put it down to ‘healing process’ - cilia growing back etc.
Then I put it down to ‘hunger’
Then I put it down to ‘cravings’ but couldn’t be having physical cravings
now could I
Then I put it down to anxiety - never had that before so not sure.

Well after today I think I would like to bet that its that feeling that has
caused me to be a smoker for most of my life - call it whatever you like and
I’m going to get it checked at doctors just in case on Monday anyway.
But yesterday it was really bad and yet today when I did my abc’s it was
hardly noticeable.
So thats what makes me think it is anxiety which used to be
placated/tranquilised by smoking. Now I’m a non-smoker I have to deal with
it in a different way.
So today went like this
There is a great deal of work to be done and the day will get busier as it
goes along
Because I know there is too much to accomplish in one day I will not expect
me to get it done.
I will take my breaks to maintain my energy levels
I will eat to keep energy levels up
I will watch out for Trevor - who trys to sabotage my work schedule by
getting me to do things for him (NOW)
I will not put undue pressure onto me I will delegate to others that which
they can do.
I will do as much as I can and not berate myself
I will do my best and see where we are at the end of the day.
Result - A much calmer Indi
And guess what it really did work.
I was able to tell people to go and look for things themselves (something I
wouldn’t have done thereby putting me behind and under stress).
I was able to tell people to politely go away and leave me alone for a while
I didn’t get very wound up at all - kept calm - didn’t have to snack but ate
at lunch time - need to get myself some water so I can drink and not get
thirsty (in addition to HALT)
Got lots more work done than I did yesterday.
Finished at my allocated time even though the work wasn’t finished.
Didn’t bring any work home with me
Even managed to ’switch off’ from it tonight - not preying on my mind.
So if any of you haven’t got into abc’s yet - please try not to wait as long
as I did before getting into ”planned ones’.
Namaste
Indi

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