day 10 …..bit ‘bumpy’ today
….one of those tough days. Stupid - I’ve found the tools but today
I just couldn’t seem to use them as effectively. B’s and C’s got a
bit mixed up and I felt like I’d ‘lost the plot’. I’m trying to
work out why I felt like that. Just had a quick chat to Pam a
little while ago which helped me, but I still can’t work out what
triggered those cravings today. Maybe I just need an early night -
have certainly been feeling tired this past day or two.
I’m a bit down, but not out. I’ll think about it some more tomorrow.
see you later
Katie
September 30th, 2003 at 5:27 pm
2 hours later…..not much better really. Had a lovely relaxing,
scented bath, then tried to get off to sleep…..no luck. Went over
to cogquit, but I think everyone’s busy tonight over the other side
of the pond, and its pretty late here.
Tiredness has done this today, I’m convinced - and it’s just not a
sleeping night tonight. A cig wouldn’t help me relax or feel better,
I know that - but I wish that whispering in my ear would stop!!
Anyone else had this - is it ‘normal/usual’?
Katie
— In CognitiveQuitSmoking@y…, “katie2905uk” <katie2905uk@y…
October 1st, 2003 at 7:57 am
Things that may also help you sleep:
When you can’t sleep get up and do some cleaning that you don’t
want to do like scrub grout. Just the idea of doing this has put an
end to a sleepless night.
Another thing is read something dry NOT entertaining.
Hope this helps. Choloe
October 3rd, 2003 at 9:52 am
Katie
As Cat has already told you its not unusual to have ‘one of those days’ where
nothing makes sense and nothing seems to work and sometimes (for me anyway)
you’ve just got to go with it.
Sometimes no matter how hard I try there just isn’t a trigger (or not one I
can identify) but then I guess we would have to be pretty clever to identify
every ‘feeling/trigger’ that we smoked on over the past ???? years.
I found that when I couldn’t identify the feeling/trigger I would often end
up keeping it in my head for a lot longer than necessary and let it go on and
on and on. I only recognise this in hindsight and couldn’t do it at the time
so used to feel exactly like you are feeling now (or were).
I’m 3 months smober today and can still do that sort of thing Katie - but as
Steve has told me on countless occasions it just takes time and experience,
after all we didn’t become full blown smokers overnight - wel we aren’t going
to become full blown non smokers overnight are we?
Cat was right one day it just seems to happen - I can’t remember when it
‘happened’ for me but not most of the time there are not so many
‘triggers/feelings’ and life goes on.
Now I’m rambling, cos its early morning here and I need to get ready for work
and I’ve got the ‘feeling’.
I know exactly what that feeling is
One part of it is hunger - haven’t had breakfast yet
The other part is anxiety - cos I really should be getting ready for work but
thats another story and needs an abc all of its own.
So I’m off to have breakfast then get ready for work - have a good day Katie
(if you read your mail before work) if not hope you had a better day.
Indi
October 4th, 2003 at 10:56 pm
Thanks Indi for your insight here, common sense and kindness. I am
so lucky to have found this supportive group of ppl as others have
commented today. 3 cheers must go to Steve for setting it up and
giving up time this way.
Day 11 is calmer, better. Being doing some of the lateral thinking
Steve and I talked about last night. I can feel a post coming when I
get my tired little head round it all a bit better.
hope to chat with you again soon,
Katie