Linda’s Introduction

I would really like to be a part of your group. I stopped smoking
last year for 15 weeks until my smoking dream. I tried for two weeks
to get over the dream but then went back to my habit. I realized
going through this site today that when I wasn’t smoking I also
wasn’t learning how to change my beliefs/behaviors. It was sheer
willpower. I believe that is why I felt like such a failure going
back. Since then I’ve made three or four half-hearted attempts to
stop. I can’t get rid of the feeling that it was a one time
willpower thing and the end result of failing is very heavy on my
mind.
I have been doing my homework printing up everything I could find
from smoking cessation sites and the cognitive quitting site. I
heard of this board from my sister and Sue and I can see why they are
excited about the logic that is found here.
Thanks.

11 Responses to “Linda’s Introduction”

  1. Neva Marjory Says:

    Hey, Linda. Welcome to the site. Go back and read the past posts
    starting in October when you get a chance. There’s occasional posts in
    there about dreams along with other information that you may find
    helpful.
    We’ll have to talk about this dream thing more if you don’t mind.
    - Cat

  2. Neva Marjory Says:

    Thanks Cat. I will find the posts related to dreams. I was on a
    message board daily at the time I had the dream. Other people who
    had dreams were so relieved when they woke up and knew it was just a
    dream. I didn’t react the same way. It was a beautiful day and I
    was walking downtown smoking. I smelled, tasted and felt the
    serenity in my brain. In this case my dream really must have
    been “an unfulfilled daytime wish” because I did not quit obsessing
    for weeks until I started smoking again. I kept reliving it. I can
    see that when I ABC for dreams I need to have a lot of back up plans.
    And I plan to. Linda

  3. Neva Marjory Says:

    Hi Linda - a big welcome from me too :) Glad you’re on board here.
    If you’re accessing the group from the website, have a look in the
    files section (the link is on the left hand side) and you can look
    up past posts e.g. about ABC’s, member introductions, etc as there
    are so many posts now in the archives. I’m working on those a
    little each day, so keep checking back there.
    I quit almost 11 months ago using cognitive quitting, and was very
    lucky to have Steve as my quitcoach right from the outset. I am now
    very secure in my quit, and truly believe I won’t ever smoke again.
    Practice those ABC’s and you really will have a great set of tools
    to deal with whatever life throws at you, the events which up to now
    have triggered those smoking urges for you.
    Reading the posts, and posting, are great, but one to one chat is a
    big help too. Do you have ICQ/Messenger, or any other chat
    programme? If so, let us know, and we’ll do what we can to support

    you. We also meet up in a Chatroom over at Spinchat sometimes, so
    look out for posts about that.
    So, hope to hear more from you soon,
    all the best
    Pam

  4. Neva Marjory Says:

    Hi Linda - me again. Thanks for your email - I’m so glad Sue
    suggested you join this group, and its good to hear she’s doing well
    with her quit - now at 8 months.
    So - have you quit? Or set a date? You were saying how you read
    and reread the ABC’s - have you started work yet on looking at some
    of your own particular ‘must have a cig’ times, and worked out where
    those urges are coming from/what feelings you’re experiencing, and
    how you’re going to deal with them? If you don’t feel that
    confident about posting your ABC’s here, then do email Steve -
    he’ll be glad to talk you through them. Be prepared to have them
    gently ‘tweaked’ at first - it doesn’t hurt, honest;) We all lived
    to tell the tale and get pretty good at writing/doing them.
    Jump in Linda - tell us how its going. Again, it’s great to have
    you here with us (and tell that Sue to come back and post and let us
    know how she is)

    take care
    Pam

  5. Neva Marjory Says:

    Ugh! You work in HR? The years I worked as a Personnel Assistant
    were probably the most stressful as far as work. It can be brutal,
    especially when going through layoffs.
    - Cat

  6. Neva Marjory Says:

    Oh my yes, the stress is intense here. I work at Encyclopaedia
    Britannica. We’ve laid off over 2,000 since 1996. But the support
    group (remaining employees) is a huge help. If I ever am one of the
    layoffs here I am looking forward to being the person who sprays
    perfume on you when you walk in to the department store. That is all
    the work related motivation I have left.
    Thank you for your answer on my ABC’s. I was feeling like a
    numbskull at the time.
    A matter of interest to show I am doing my homework: When I walked
    past our switchboard operator yesterday morning she asked me how I
    always managed to be so upbeat and cheerful. By yesterday I knew the
    truthful answer. I said “Barb, I’ve learned that it may be because
    I’m a smoker. The smoking hides my true feelings”.
    Good, huh? I think I’m getting with (some of) the program!

  7. hassan_11 Says:

    In a message dated 17/01/02 18:28:18 GMT Standard Time,
    catmohan@… writes:
    Can I have a translation please - what is HR????
    Ta
    Indi

  8. Neva Marjory Says:

    Human Resources - we used to have a Personnel dept til the term
    became ‘old hat’
    Pam
    PS Just been chatting with Cat - need you two to get me ‘ready’ for
    Saturday ;) Spinchat?

  9. hassan_11 Says:

    In a message dated 17/01/02 23:19:32 GMT Standard Time, ukpam2000@…
    writes:
    Post a time - late afternoon - about 4 - 5 would suit me
    Indi

  10. hassan_11 Says:

    In a message dated 17/01/02 21:43:17 GMT Standard Time, katie@… writes:
    I really don’t think we need to work it all out exactly cos once we know
    hermy/warren exists then we can use our foundation statements. At the end of
    the day the worse case scenario is that we are going to feel bloody
    uncomfortable by not smoking (and this discomfort can be appeased in other
    ways lots of the time)
    What is the worse case scenario if we continue to smoke????? I know what
    mine is - having to face open heart surgery. Well who knows maybe I still
    will even though I have quit but at least I am giving my body a fighting
    chance to avoid it.
    So what do I do - well I choose NOT to smoke, I choose to learn how NOT to
    smoke and deal with the associated discomforts of learning this new behaviour
    and the ‘normal’ feelings of ’stress’ and other bodily discomforts that we
    all have.
    There are many issues that I have had to deal with since I quit smoking and I

    really would have thought that having got to the third stage of my life I
    would have had more brains by now and figured out the obvious - but no.
    I have smoked for 44 years and am not sure how many of those years I have
    spent trying to quit. Not really trying you understand but subconsciously
    probably knowing that it wasn’t good for me and I would prefer to be a
    non-smoker.
    So for all the times I tried to quit - I would decide to ’stop smoking’ - it
    was usually in response to a new ‘quit smoking’ aid which had come on the
    market.
    So I would buy it (whatever it was) take it, use it and expect it to stop me
    smoking and when it didn’t I would reinforce my belief that either it was too
    hard for me to quit or really there were some of the cigs I really enjoyed
    and they didn’t do that much harm, I have to die from something, its my only
    vice and so on and so on.
    Now what I was in fact trying to do was appease the discomfort - instantly
    and then I would never smoke again!!!!
    We all know it doesn’t work this way but I had to try over and over and over
    again.
    Until now that is, now I’m doing something different and I am getting
    different results.
    I no longer smoke, I no longer get any discomfort relating to my need for a
    nic fix, I no longer have the desire to smoke.
    What I do get are all sorts of discomforts relating to living in this mad
    world with all these mad people:) and all sorts of discomforts relating to my
    body healing from its 44 + years of nicotine/smoke abuse.
    I’m going to do a post about these over the weekend so keep you posted.
    Anything is doable LindaLou - if you choose to do it!!!!!!!!!!!
    Namaste
    Indi

  11. hassan_11 Says:

    In a message dated 18/01/02 02:12:41 GMT Standard Time,
    catmohan@… writes:
    Should have known that really Cat but brain fog and halfzeimers are well and
    truly setting in.

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