Archive for October, 2003

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Friday, October 10th, 2003

Hiya Marde - good to see you. Must be feeling good now that Tuesday
and that appt are out of the way.
When you said
..that really rang a few bells with me. Like the exsmokers who go
back to smoking after a couple of yrs quit, I think its down to not
having disconnected those old associations, and getting new
responses in place.
Have a look at this; I asked Steve a similar question way back in
April last year on the other egroup (cogquitting) about ‘long term
quitters and relapse’, and I think his response is really relevant
here :-
From: ddsteve
Date: Wed Apr 11, 2001 3:36 am
Subject: long time quitters + relapse
Hi there,
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Then there were 2 …….

Wednesday, October 8th, 2003

….two Katies. Welcome to the new Katie (Katielou) - might it be
less confusing if I rename myself Katie1 (seeing as I quit Jan 1st)
or shall I stay as I am and not confuse things more?
Is this brain fog going to lift soon ;) Katie1 aka Katie2905uk

anyone home today?

Sunday, October 5th, 2003

Kelley here
I am home today a nd having some major cravings (two weeks yesterday), just
wondering if anyone is around now to talk on icq???
I will watch my email to see if anyone wants to chat.
Kelley

Help me with this

Sunday, October 5th, 2003

Okay, feeling good this morning doing the usual picking up, dishes, etc. Sit
down for a break and wham - one of those demons hit me hard (kind of knocked the
breath out of me). These are the kind that scare me. I remember from my old
quits that after a while when I’d become a bit tired of thinking about the quit
and fighting the urges, this demon is the one the assisted in my failing. I
want to try to nip this one in the bud, because I know it’ll come again and
again. This one doesn’t seem to be associated with anything i.e., arguing with
my mortgage company, feeling anxious about a meeting, etc. You guys are much
better at this than I am, so please help me on this ABC. My new B/C1’s seem
pretty lame for this out-of-breath producing demon.
A. A tired, pestimistic, self-destructive feeling of blah-whatever
comes over me.
B. I need a lift, who cares, Ill have a cigarette, noone will know.
C. Ill smoke a cigarette, feel the immediate buzz, enjoy the sneakiness.
New one:
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This group is Awesome! :-)

Saturday, October 4th, 2003

Hey, I just wanted to post and let everyone know that I am really
glad that I found this group. :-) I get the posts in my email, and
I tell you what, reading them really does help — with my motivation,
determination, and strong desire to KEEP THIS QUIT.
Your ups and downs are also/or could be-MY ups and downs, and it
helps to know how you guys are handling different situations, etc.,
that come up in our daily lives.
Just want to say, thanks for the posts and the inspiration. :-) Tiko**
**I have not smoked a cigarette in one week, three days, 7 hours, 14
minutes and 21 seconds.
That is 412 cigarettes not smoked, saving $51.51.
My Life restored so far: 1 day, 10 hours, 20 minutes.**

I’ve got Allzheimers!!!!!

Wednesday, October 1st, 2003

I forgot to tell you why there were almost bits of bodies all over which is
the reason I posted in the first place.
I desperately needed to get some orders delivered and had no one spare to
take them so asked DH if he would do a few hours work for me this afternoon
delivering my orders.
He agreed - came into my office to pick up paper work - gave him route finder
directions and he acted so ’simple’ that I just exploded and said.
In a very loud voice.
Don’t be so f….ing stupid and act like a f……ing idiot - I have enough
f……ing idiots to contend with in this f…..ing hell hole I am working in
without you starting as well.
Boy did it feel good - for someone who hardly ever swears!!!!!!
But I wasn’t feeling angry or even aggressive it felt more like just saying
it the way it was and not pussy footing about!!
Anyway thats enought
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