I caved
Saturday, January 3rd, 2004Wow, just when things seemed to going fairly well on my first Quit Day, 3P
hit and I was locked in a huge struggle for my brain and my
will………which I lost. I smoked 4 cigs during the next two hours. 3 PM
to 5 PM are typically very hard for me for a number of reasons and I
belatedly realized I should have been prepared to take some extra care
during that time. You can bet that today I will! It’s payday and my
neighbor is taking me shopping at 3:30. Getting away from here is always a
big plus.
I do need the psychological lift of knowing I’ve gone: One day, 13 hours, 44
minutes and 9 seconds. 78(74) cigarettes not smoked. I’ve decided not to
reset the meter unless I can’t make it through today and tomorrow without
lighting up. I have no intention of giving up but in order to have some
integrity in my Quit and to be fair to myself, I settled on those numbers.
Obviously, if I cave a second and third time it will be an indication I need
to take a close look at where I’m going wrong here.
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