To The Katies
Wednesday, May 12th, 2004UK Katie; glad to hear you’re doing well and learning how to recognize
depression. I’ve had two spells of feeling low since my quit. Once was
a few weeks after quitting zyban and the other was about three weeks
ago. The first time I believe was my body reacting to the absence of
the anti-depressant. Once I realized what was going on, I was able to
deal with the situation by forcing myself to think more positively and
to do things that make me feel better about myself. The second low was
different. I let outside events affect me. My negative response to the
stress reinforced my negativity. The hard part here is that I realized
what I was doing to myself, but I just couldn’t make myself care. After
a while, I got tired of the self-pity party and pulled out very slowly.
That ride down to the coast was the closest I’ve come to stopping for
smokes in the past four months. Luckily, I thought of the abc’s I’d
mentally prepared for when I got to the beach. I thought ‘well, this
would be a terrible waste to smoke now when I’ve got abc’s already
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