Catching Up
Hi All
Good to see so many posts, lots of nice anniversaries around - well
done everyone.
Cat enjoyed your post girl friend and can understand and identify
with everything you wrote.
You all may remember last year at the beginning of my quit when I was
going to visit with my son who was emigrating to New Zealand and my
new grand-daughter.
It was a real struggle for me to get through that time without a
smoke and it was only by using the cog quit method (not to mention
the support I was given by Steve & All) that I managed to remain a
quitter.
I cannot ever envisage myself ‘wanting’ to smoke again as I cannot
see any benefit from it at all and today I had confirmation how
easily my Hermy has set up new ways to deal with ‘feelings/emotions’
whatever you want to call them.
I had a message on my phone today when I got home from work that my
grand-daughter is in hospital with pneumonia. Well you can imagine
my reaction - I’m miles away and the time difference is so great that
I can’t even speak to my son until late this evening.
Smoking or the thought of smoking never entered my head, it was only
when I came online that I realised the way Hermy is working for me
now.
Today I’ve had all sorts of ‘feelings’ thrown at me - work has been
dreadful, I’m extremely tired cos I’ve been working too hard and
long. Had a phone call from my girlfriend to tell me her brother had
died. Had phone call from eldest grandson telling me he’d got the
results he needed from his A levels to get into the Uni he wants to
go to.
So that was this morning - the afternoon didn’t get much better on
the work front, had health and safety inspection - got into trouble
cos no fire regs in place!!!! Then did audit of month to find out
the company had made no profit!!!! So a bit like you Cat - job
losses seem to be on horizon.
Then got home to get news about Rebecca.
In the past I would have smoked my way through it all instead I sat
on the chair in the garden and cried. DH came home and I cried on
his shoulder, told him what a crap day I’d had and not once all day I
have even thought of a cig.
So I guess thats what Steve would call progress and I guess that
makes me a successful cog quitter not an addict.
I can identify with what you were saying Phil about having to ‘have
that one puff’. A couple of years ago I quit using another method
and classed myself as a successful quitter - but every so often I
just HAD to have that one puff - to prove to myself that I didn’t
like smoking.
Eventually that one puff turned into a night of smoking (when I was
under the influence) and then next day it was - well if I want to
smoke I can smoke!!!!
For me doing it the cog quit way has made so much difference. Once
I’d got the hang of ABC’ing then it seems that it happens
automatically and my automatic response to anything these days is
much healthier and more appropriate than lighting up.
Well I guess you are all glad that you weren’t around 10 months ago
cos there used to be garbled posts like this most every day:)
Keep on cogquitting one and all
love, light and laughter
Indi
October 20th, 2004 at 9:54 am
10 months
Congratulations Indi.
I miss your ‘garbled posts’ (that weren’t garbled at all but full of
insight and humor).
Steve