Archive for November, 2004

Freakin’ Friday!!!!!

Tuesday, November 30th, 2004

I can not begin to tell you how frustrated I am….I can not connect to ICQ, I
have no contact with anyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What is the matter with this thing?
I have downloaded the new version, I cant get it to connect…I have used this
frickin program forever!@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
What is the matter
I am loosing it
Big time

Indentical sensations

Monday, November 29th, 2004

Stress and nicotine withdrawal are almost identical sensations. So
in that situation, wanting to smoke in order to relieve the discomfort is
an automatic association. The catch is, and you realize this, that a
cigarette isn’t going to change the facts

and ANOTHER!!!!

Sunday, November 28th, 2004

I cannot really understand this one!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I posted recently that I reached an 8 month quit the end of
August…………..
(and yes, I am the one who is eating all those pretzels and gaining all
the weight) :) BUT - I really had thought it miraculous how well I had seemed to
retrain my impulses - VERY few (if any) thoughts of
smoking………………………
until today -
and today - out of the blue - no heavy duty pressure ……
but three times I found myself on my feet - and in the kitchen - looking
for an ashtray!!!!!!!!!!!! (no warning - and no explanation) :))))
<and no smokes!!
Perhaps just too many thoughts about it???? (through reading the
group??)
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Another question?

Sunday, November 28th, 2004

Just a question for the group as a whole…………..
Senate committee in Canada has recommended legalizing marihuana
(spelling) :))
with the idea that it would be treated as alcohol and tobacco - only
available to those 18 years plus - and only able to be sold as inspected
product which met whatever standards were set for it. Individuals
could grow their own - much as they can now make their own wine if they
desire.
Subject to tax of course :)) But removed from the “outlaw” element
which sells it now.
I just wondered what the response of the group would be…………….
(my own was positive - remove sales from the “bikers”!!!)
And if not illegal - perhaps less reason for the young to reach for it.
????
Used to “smell it” at the local college - but never did try it !!!!
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#$%^^$$%^^&##@

Sunday, November 28th, 2004

Damnit!
I have fought this all fricking day! I have a DH ( you can use your imagination
here) who undermines me every time I quit. I am sick of fighting the cigs and
him. I have a son who has lost his job two months ago, took a month off not
looking for work, I guess he was on some kind of holiday. He has moved home.
Same sone, only son is named in a paternity case. He is working temporary/part
time, bums money from me and his dad, to have gas money to work…..I am
soooooooo pissed.
I know, I know…
A. I feel like know one gives a %^%#% whether I quit smoking or not. God
forbid, I could be alittle bit bitchy without smokes. I am depressed (sonny boy
will probably never move out), DH is acting like a shit ass. I am totally
stressed and on the verge of smoking. Son wants money for gas and cigarettes,
he is broke, blah, blah blah. Husband cant stand on his own two feet and deal
with our son, he sends him into me to deal with.
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Checking in…..4 days, 14 hours + quit

Saturday, November 27th, 2004

and this has been the hardest day for me. I dont understand why. I
realize that I am probably still detoxing/going through withdrawal,
but I envisioned the first three days to be the hardest. Any
thoughts?
I have had quite a bit of stress yesterday, quit my job as a part
time cake decorator, after seeing an ad in the paper for my position
and inquiring about the ad to my boss…”They were not planning on
replacing me”. LOL The ABC to this scenario…
A. See ad in the newspaper for position currently held by me, asked
my boss about it.
B. Could: buy a pack of cigs and smoke,I would feel instant relief,
could ask the owner if I am being replaced, could wait and see
(patience is not a virture of mine). I could take a walk.
C. Choose not to smoke, smoking will not change the outcome of this
situation, I would be disappointed with myself. I choose not to
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Marian update 2 weeks

Saturday, November 27th, 2004

Marian; you’ve had a lot to deal with in these early weeks of your
quit. Understanding your feelings of depression might help. If you
haven’t already, please read the posts in the Files section in the
Depression folder, in particular, Steve’s post on depression (message
#61). Of course, being burgled on top of quitting the smokes is very
stressful.
I remember when someone came in through our bedroom window (I’m
married) and stepped on our bed to get into the room!! I felt very
violated that someone would enter my private space in that manner
without my knowledge (I threw away the sheets, probably would have
thrown away the bed if I could afford it). Believe me, it took a
while for me to feel safe again, even though we found out who had
done the deed and had him arrested. I probably smoked a few packs a
day for a few weeks after that! Nowadays, it’s nice to have the
confidence in my quit that I feel that I’ve done enough of my ABC’s
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Slipped and trying to learn from it.

Thursday, November 25th, 2004

Steve,
You ask some great questions, I don’t know if I have the answers?
I don’t know how to get part of my previous email on here with the
signs? I will just type it again.
(Dayla wrote) I picked it up and took not one, but about six drags
off of it! I am trying to analyze this so I avoid this happening in
the future.
Steve, you ask what it taste like? It tasted bad, it was a menthol,
which I never liked, although that never stopped me before.
Yes, I felt very guilty but I am not sure what I was thinking. I
ask myself that same question because of what I have learned from cog
quit, I don’t remember thinking anything, but maybe I will just grab
this and take some drags.
(Dayla wrote) I don’t know if smoking was so strong on my mind, since
I did have to think about it a lot this weekend being around my
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Slipped and kicking myself!

Wednesday, November 24th, 2004

What have you come up with? What did it taste like? What were the
physical feelings as the nicotine flooded your body? Aside from the
resulting feelings of guilt, what were you feeling and thinking when you
picked the cig up and smoked it?
I don’t follow this. Can you explain?
Steve

Gearing up!!!

Monday, November 22nd, 2004

Hey People,
I’m gearing up. The gig is done. My chest hurts and I’m tired of
being a slave.
My cousin from Buffalo, N.Y. . quit using sites and tools as these.
First family member
on that side to quit anything. I am the only smoker among siblings,
but mother died of
lung and bone cancer 4 years ago. Send suggestions and good vibes, I
must read on
and set date. wildpeanut