Checking in…..4 days, 14 hours + quit
and this has been the hardest day for me. I dont understand why. I
realize that I am probably still detoxing/going through withdrawal,
but I envisioned the first three days to be the hardest. Any
thoughts?
I have had quite a bit of stress yesterday, quit my job as a part
time cake decorator, after seeing an ad in the paper for my position
and inquiring about the ad to my boss…”They were not planning on
replacing me”. LOL The ABC to this scenario…
A. See ad in the newspaper for position currently held by me, asked
my boss about it.
B. Could: buy a pack of cigs and smoke,I would feel instant relief,
could ask the owner if I am being replaced, could wait and see
(patience is not a virture of mine). I could take a walk.
C. Choose not to smoke, smoking will not change the outcome of this
situation, I would be disappointed with myself. I choose not to
smoke and to look at this situation as it is not the end of the
world, there are other jobs.
As it turns out, I met with the owner, he couldnt give me a good
reason for the ad in the paper, he said that I was not communicating
with the manager. I went to work early in the morning, so I would
have the rest of the day to do what I wanted. As long as their
display case was full and the special orders were completed, I was
told they didnt care when I worked. I dont see where this required me
to communicate with the manager. Anyway I didnt smoke, I told myself
that there are other jobs that I will like. I took a walk, did some
cleaning and laundry.
For the past twenty years I have worked in a very stressful field,
finance and collections (business to business) I was sick of it. I
took the cake decorating job on a fluke.
Gee, I am rambling….LOL I made it, I guess that is the main
thing. I guess that I am surprised that this is the hardest day I
have had since quitting on 9/1.
Thanks for listening,
Julie