Archive for December, 2004

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Friday, December 31st, 2004

God this is messy but here goes (Its not finished)
List 1- Reasons to smoke.
on the computer
offline
playing video games
writing a email
downloading software
preparing to do work on the computer (formating and setting up)
(rewards)
waking up (stimualton, getting my thinking cap on straight)
watching tv pleasure
listening to music pleasure
when waiting for the water to turn warm for a shower (boredom,
impatience)
also cup of coffee means break time or waking up. pleasure
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ABC’s for grrrrrrr….

Thursday, December 30th, 2004

ABC’s
Today was one of those that starts lousy and goes steadily downhill. Although I
don’t actively do ABC’s any more I thought hey, why not pick one and do an ABC
around it.
The events:-
1) Fixed penalty fine from Lancs Police for being caught speeding. Fair cop?
No way - doing 36mph in a 30mph zone has got to be the pettiest fine of all.
They allow a 10% error margin and I’m one - yes one - percent outside that. £40
lighter..
2.. The long awaited Broadband is installed. High speed internet at last. No
end of problems getting it configured. Engineer installs the modem on my pc -
and gawd knows what he does but email and internet explorer promptly crash.
Wonderful - the day is getting even better. Run Scandisk, system restore, and
finally reinstall I.E.
3.. In the middle of all this there’s a power cut, the burglar alarm trips off
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Homework done

Thursday, December 30th, 2004

Hi. I have listed below those reasons and effects of smoking which
seemed applicable to me. I’m sure it’s incomplete and I know there’s
a lot more quitting symptoms and urges that are applicable to others
and even to myself (each quit is different!). Anyway, I don’t know
if there’s a sort of deadline for this, so I’m submitting what I
have. Bye now.
Reasons to smoke:
I. Chemical: 1) blood nicotine level drops below “lower set
point”
a. Blood sugar drop
b. Partial synaptic dysfunction
c. Digestive upset
d. Lack of focus, light-headedness
e. Etc.
II. Emotional: 1) Substitute for directly addressing
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Week 5

Wednesday, December 29th, 2004

WB,
You took the words right out of my mouth. I took am on my fifth week.
I quit on August 15th. My sister was trying to get her husband to go
to a hypnosis session to quit. I told him that I would go with him and
try it. Well I went alone and have not smoked since then. I don’t know
if it was hypnosis or just willpower but whatever works. I too went
through the first week on a high note but the second and third week were
difficult (very difficult). Now though I am going through work, the
car, walks, etc. and not thinking about it (most of the time). I still
get cravings and will for the rest of my non-smoking life but this time
I will work through it in other ways. Thank you for putting into words
what I too have been feeling for more than one month.
Penny

[CognitiveQuitSmoking] With trepidation - Spelling, Algebra (N

Tuesday, December 28th, 2004

<George Bernard Shaw (obscure English person) played around with a phonetic
alphabet (or was he <Scottish?).
Actually he was Irish and in 1925 he was awarded the Nobel Prize for
Literature. Shaw accepted the honor but refused the money. One of his 50+
plays included Pygmalion, which became the movie My Fair Lady in 1964,
starring Rex Harrison, Audrey Hepburn. He also coined the phrase,”England
and America are two countries divided by a common language”.
As to spelling or is it pronunciation, lets go crappy fishing. Pronounced
“croppy”, a white perch.
<Then there’s the abcs (crucial actually, but you learn that a bit later)
and you think `ok - I used to have a fag
<at this point but now I am going to take a deep breath’.
ABC’s are crucial! I have been abc-ing my life away these past two months.
I have experienced every emotion in the gambit, and have not been an overall
happy camper. Part of the “be prepared to be physically and emotionally
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Hi, my quitting story

Tuesday, December 28th, 2004

Hi, just joined this list. I am on day 32 of my quit. I made an attempt
last year that failed when I decided to reward myself with “one cigarette”
for going a whole week without smoking. Obviously that was a poor
decision–one cig turned into one pack a day. So here I am a year later and
I decided to quit because I had become increasingly more and more
disenchanted with smoking, for many reasons—mostly because it was smelling
up my house and car, sucking every bit of energy out of my body, causing me
to excuse myself from every social situation so I could go outside and smoke,
and reducing my productivity at work. I am a member of mgmt at work and I
was not setting a good example becuase I spent so much time smoking instead
of working….but I wasn’t doing it to be lazy—I was doing it to reduce
tension.
Anyway, last month I was getting really disgusted with smoking (a pack or
more a day) and I woke up and decided to quit. I had three cigarettes that
morning, and declared the third one “my last”, and it was. I also decided
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With trepidation - Spelling, Algebra (No fish  guaranteed - almo

Monday, December 27th, 2004

If you have raised children then you will know that, while you do
your best to pass on a skill, your offspring must develop the ability
to understand that skill before they can utilise it with
effectiveness. In their own minds.
A switch must be thrown, in their minds, that (in a flash) enables
them to apply the learned lesson to new experiences with ease. We,
as adults, have no direct control over when that switch is thrown.
We talk, and we teach, and we show and we talk some more. And then,
it (mostly) happens. *Ching* wow this is new and I can use it.
Sometimes this is logical, rational, provable. And sometimes it
isn’t.
What might be common, however, is that flash of understanding. The
flash of understanding that occurs in an individual mind. There is a
tale of Zen monks asked to explain the `true nature’ of a jug of
water. The guy who got the `A’ grade smashed it on the floor.
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Spinchat Dayla

Monday, December 27th, 2004

Hi Dayla
Think what you have to do is type in the box and then hit return on
keyboard. Then the message comes up on the screen so all the group
can see it - thats if there are any in of course.
Good luck next time
Indi

Morning conversation with the vulture..

Monday, December 27th, 2004

she woke me up this morning trying to make me feel bad about cutting
back on the amount of anniversery posts I usually do. weird
conversation.
she said to me “get up! time to do the anni posts”
I said “I can do them later”
she said if you dont start now you wont get them done and then youl
feel bad and when you feel bad you smoke.”
I said “I’m not going to do as many cuz I need some time to take care
of me ”
she said “oh there you go, your going to get all self centered about
taking care of yourself and then your going to feel guilty and then
your going to need a smoke, you do it everytime.”
it went on and on for about 3 minutes and I decided shes the part of
me thats afraid of sucess because if I succeed that could mean
something else unknown and scary will come up and I’ll have to deal
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More Newbies

Sunday, December 26th, 2004

I;ve only been away for a weeked and come back to find there aare
millionse of newbies on the site - welcome to you all -ignore
whatever I say today cos I’m having a bad weekend which without cog
quit and cog thinking would definately have made me ruin an 11 very
happy ll months of being smoke free so hurrah at least I am still on
my smoke free track inspite of all the shit that is happeneing.
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Catch up with you all later in week when I am more normal and sane -
if ever.
regards
Indi