Those who smoke while they are asleep and those who smoke not
That’s a good point, Gail, but I tended to handle my anger
differently. I am sitting here picturing myself out in the garage or
on the deck smoking a cig while angry. I can’t see myself
thoughtfully smoking, trying to work out how to make the situation
better. Typically, when I was angry I would grab a smoke (or 2 or
3) to remove myself from the situation (was it an excuse to smoke?)
and I would proceed to feed my anger by pacing back and forth in one
of my isolated smoking areas. It was my way of not facing up to what
was making me angry or frustrated. Now I realize how I must have
looked to my family. Every time something happened to make me angry
or frustrated or terribly sad, I ran outside to smoke… all they
saw that I kept running away from the issue (and them), hoping a
solution would be found without me.
- Cat
December 19th, 2004 at 7:29 pm
neverbeensmokers feel what emotions actually feel like and deal with
them the best way they know how with what they have. On the other
hand, I think smokers feel the emotion but a bit of a false emotion
i.e. dulled, enhanced, etc. ‘under the influence’ so to speak, while
the nicotine flows through their heart finally affecting their
senses.
The horse is not dead, and you should say your stuff, that is why we
are typing these things and sending them off into the void. But I
still feel you are romanticising what it is like not to smoke.
These ‘normal’ people who never took to smoking are not blessed with
some magic strength or superiority. But they didn’t smoke and we
did. ‘Cos we like the risk and the toke and the f**k everybody,
we’re doin’ this.
But we’re moving on. There are an awful lot of schmuchs (spelling?)
who never smoked.
Phil