Getting there (where?)
I wasn’t sure what to call this post - it could turn out to be a
mini ramble so hope you’ll bear with me. I wondered if anyone
could identify with some of my thoughts
I’ve been quit a few weeks now (nearly 4) and already its feeling
very normal not to smoke. that’s not to say there aren’t times a
cig thought will come along, but it just never makes sense any more
to light up. I said to Steve when he and I were chatting yesterday
evening that … ” I keep waiting for ’something’ to happen. .its
just as if i’m leading up to something but i don’t know what. the
days roll by…i can’t explain it very well” Steve’s explanation
made a lot of sense to me: he was suggesting that, as I’ve been
very actively involved in this quit process - the awareness, the
abc’ing etc - it seems to me that it must `reach some point’, that
it feels like it must be going `somewhere’. Maybe I spent too many
years marking/punctuating all the points in my day with a smoke - a
very specific thing to do. An automatic response of `not smoking’
isn’t a tangible, physical thing - it just becomes part of me, an
exsmoker. Or, maybe I reached that `point’ - the realisation that
I’m quit, that I’ve got here? I wanted to write more about it - but
at 10am after a short and lousy nights sleep, my brain isn’t really
in gear yet.
Well done to Carla by the way on those 5 months quit - and welcome
to all the new people who’ve joined the group recently - this really
is a great place to be to be. I just keep finding a new facet of me
all the time as the smoke shroud lifts.
Anita