Archive for December, 2004

Those who smoke while they are asleep and those who smoke not at all

Monday, December 13th, 2004

Two unrelated things from one of the midnight ramblers. That’s the
first lie - they’re both about smoking.
About 3 weeks into my quit (I’m now three and a half months) I dreamt
I was smoking. And, in my dream, I knew I was dreaming. And I told
myself, ‘It’s ok - it’s a dream. This is not a real cigarette.’
So, in my dream, I smoked another one. That’s true. I don’t say
it’s good, but it really happened. I thought it was funny.
Oh yeah, the other piece.
You can read up about smokers and what, if anything, they have in
common. You can read about mesolimbic pathways if you want to - but
it’s just to do with what happens to turn you on. Seems smokers tend
to be more experimental, enjoy special spicy foods, different
appetites, more sex and different sex. You can make of this what you
wish to, but I know shit people who smoke and shit people who don’t.
I know lovely, delightful people who smoke and lovely, delightful
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Well need help now for sure.

Sunday, December 12th, 2004

Thought I sent message straight to you Dayla by hitting reply to your
message but obviously went to group message. How do I reply to
someone without posting as group message or are they all group
messages. Oh well live and learn and how did you figure out I was
from OK. Obviously you found my email address which is OK but
thought my identity would be known only as magicswoman. Let me know
how this works so in the future I won’t be revealing too much
personal info. Thanks. Appreciate your support and will visit
websites recommended by you. God bless and have a smoke free day. By
the way how long is your quit?

ABC for 9/11

Saturday, December 11th, 2004

I have so much enjoyed the posts this past week but hate that I
haven’t replied to any as I’ve been so busy I’m going twelve ways to
Sunday (for my international and Yankee friends, that means I’m
busier than a cat covering crap on a marble floor). Anyhow, I love
seeing the new quitters here, can sympathize with the ranting and
anger, love to read in the posts how that light starts to come on
when someone realizes that cognitive thinking is a great tool in
learning how to quit an addiction. Congrats on that 11 months, Indi,
you know I’m a few days behind you and it now seems like years since
I smoked, same with you? Barb, my second day was my worst so
hopefully you’ll be like me and have the worst day of your quit
behind you.
I don’t write out ABC’s much anymore but I wanted to do one for
today. I honestly think I don’t need it but, then again, who knows?
And if it helps any of you newer quitters to realize that you may
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Quitting Again

Saturday, December 11th, 2004

Well, here I am again still smoking but knowing deep inside I want to
quit but very scared to quit because I’m afraid I will fail. Have
been smoking almost 2 years since my last quit and really wanting to
change my life. Recently been on diet and have successfully lost 15
of the 30 pounds I had gained from the last time I had quit. I think
my goal will be when I reach 20 pounds lost I will try to quit
again. Then my mind tells me today is 9/11/02 and what a wonderful
tribute it would be to quit on this date in memory of those who lost
their lives, for those who are still fighting for our country, and
for the many people I love in my life. I have been reading this site
for about a week and have really been impressed with the memos,
trials, tribulations, pain, and success I have seen here. This is a
battle I know I will be fighting for the rest of my life and I feel
if I could accomplish my goal I would like to help others never
start, or quit if they have started. I am 47 years old and have been
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Fish

Saturday, December 11th, 2004

Steve,
I have a problem with constructing ABCs. I seem to have discarded
most of my triggers as easy as a snake sloughs off its skin. Have
you encountered this before? All the big ones friends all smoking,
angry at some shit who’s upset me, sitting at the dinner table after
a meal, driving, getting up in the morning they don’t seem to fire
any more.
As for the getting up in the morning it used to be `I am awake.
Get up and you can have a cup of tea, smoke a fag (and, undoubtedly,
sit on the toilet)’ - Now it seems to be `I am awake. Get up and
you can have a cup of tea and check cogquit’. If I get a PC
installed in the toilet I reckon I’ve got it made. Just hope dialing
in to cogquit is a) cheaper than smoking, and b) not so toxic.
It seems to me I have just two triggers left (he said weakly
weekly?).
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Fight the urge

Friday, December 10th, 2004

Barb,
I have quit twice cold turkey. It is the best way to quit. The
nicotine is out of your body in about 72 hours. You don’t have much
longer to go! Remember that it is okay to need the cigarette but you do
not have to do it. I have quit for almost a month. It does get better.
Take a walk. Breathe deeply. Play with a pen, ball or something
small. Remember that you are not alone.
Penny

Hi everyone! I’m Barb Brown

Friday, December 10th, 2004

My new friend and fellow smokaholic, Julie, gave me all the information on this
support group and told me how “great” you all are. As far as I know, I am a
subscriber, since everyone involved quickly did what was needed to get me in.
Thank you Pam and Julie.
I am 36 hours into being a non-smoker and have had to do this cold turkey
because of health problems that the doctor says will interfere with smoking
cessation aids. I don’t quite understand it…what could be worse than the
cigarettes themselves???…but I won’t argue the point…I’m just trying to get
through it. I am finding the second day to be far worse than the first.
I need to tell you all…I have been smoking for 40 years, am 54 years old and
have been diagnosed with COPD/emphysema. I’m not debilitated, however, I am
taking 2 puffs of Vanceril and Albuterol, twice a day for breathing (sometimes
more when I smoked more than 2 packs). I have been a 2 pack a day (sometimes
more), smoker for a long time. My doctor tells me if I quit now, I will have a
chance to arrest this disease and perhaps even reverse some of the damage. Not
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Don’t give up!

Thursday, December 9th, 2004

Julie,
Congratulations on not giving in. I know how you feel. For awhile
everyone was teasing me about being cranky. I wasn’t that bad but they
are not used to me being quiet and to myself. I felt like I should just
light up so I would go back to happy me and make everyone else happy.
Screw them…….You are doing this for yourself. Don’t give them any
ammunition to throw back at you.

Dang

Wednesday, December 8th, 2004

I am really having a hard time………
A. My son comes home from work…”When is dinner going to be ready?” I said,
“About 20 minutes or so, why dont you get your shower?” He said, “Why are you
fu*king on me all of the time?” After I told him to get over himself, he leaves
heads for the garage where he finds his dad. Son tells Daddy how terrible I
treat him, Son tells Dad that he always sides with me, blah, blah, blah. Dad
tells son, that he is married to me, I am his wife, blah, blah, blah. Evening
goes down hill from here, to the point where DH tells me that I act just like my
mother (an extremely low blow).
B. Momma wants a cigarette so bad she can taste it. What the heck, they dont
give a rat’s butt whether I smoke or not. I might as well go buy a pack and
smoke them all.
B1. I could post to cogquit to get this off of my chest, I am pissed off, big
time. I could go to bed. I could cry, because I am really stressed, and I
dont feel like I am being treated fairly. I am hurt and feel disprespected.
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Quitters Cough

Tuesday, December 7th, 2004

Hi Julie,
I remember that cough well the first time I quit several years ago. It
was horrible and last more than a year. I was sick all of the time.
This time when i quit I have been taking an
antioxidant….N-Acetyl-cysteine. The brand that I have is Respi Clear
and I have not had a problem. It may help that the first quit I had
smoked for more than 15 years and quit for 7 years….smoked for 3 years
and have now quit for 25 days. You should be able to find this at a
health food store. Good luck and congratulations!
Penny