Not so angry now
Its been an interesting last few days,after deciding the best thing to
do was just hang out with this emotion I was having, to not try to
change it, just allow it run its course, and I am glad to say it pretty
much has.
It got tricky at times, and more then once I had to do abc’s to keep
things in check and be sure that I wasnt heading into trouble. It was
also intersting that alot of it stems from things that have been events
in my life time starting early and leading up to right now.
I keep finding it ineresting that so much of it, there are so many
seemingly different events that share the same needs and emotions and
phsycial feelings.
This is going to require more work to get a good grip on it and be able
to chose different responses everytime, so off to work I go.
at one point it turned into an early yet powerful resentment, Im sorry
to say I didnt know how to deal with it, so I resorted to 12 step
techniques, but I didnt smoke. I need to learn to abc on this kind of
thing.
Thanks for all the help and support..
first I sleep
then I start disecting 
caisy