Just rambling.. hello
Good morning Everyone 
I really wanted just to say hi and check in. al though its probably more
then that, one day I’ll learn to shorten my thoughts and kind of keep it
more simple, (maybe)
I try really hard to explain what I understand and sometimes I don’t have
the right words, when asked directly for help its hard to say no I can’t,
when sometimes I should, and I made that mistake a while back. So I backed
off a bit, and I will stay that way. If anyone should aska direct question,
if I answer it, my answer will first go through Steve to be sure its correct
I’m dealing with some other stuff besides not smoking.
Thanks to learning some cog techniques, I’ve been able to
keep things seperate. I hurt, this does not require I smoke, it requires
only that I search my beliefs and refute and change as necessary.
What I’m finding as of late, is that cognitively, truth and denial cannot
coexist, that my beliefs deep down remain the same as when I first started
to try and become involved with my inner voices and with teaching Warren new
responses, who btw has been extremely patient with me as of late.
I suppose its part of the quit, and its best I come accross those deeper
ingrained beliefs now then wait until I get so frustrated and confused that
warren reverts to whispering have a smoke, youl feel better.
I spent some time in counselling, I have ptsd as well, one of my
counscellers said,
one of these days you won;t be a victim anymore. I asked how, she said you
l just decide not to play and that will be that.
I was still smoking but shes right, I didnt know about warren, but shes
still right.
I’ve been letting my quit go through changes without me being able to guide
it, higher brain confused , Warren confused but patient, hes getting good.
I took back the steering wheel, little shakey still, but now with a
different mindset.
Habitsmart says something about out thoughts emotions being influenced by
our thoughts, so introduce a different thought and idfferent emotions will
follow.
never mind
just rambling.
how is everyone else doing?
caisy