a seizure abc’s
Oh man this is hard for me, I dont know how to use cog quit or any other
cog methods to deal with seizures.
they make me verynevious, just anxious and fearful
and I could abc it forever but I wouldnt come up with
a solouton other then to take the extra meds and hope
sleep will come soon and maybe fix it.
yes this does make me wish for a quick fix
a I am having seizures, all day
b I am powerless and hopeless at this moment, and in the past I owuld have
smoked just to change the subject in my mind and stop this anxiety and fear.
c I would have smoked
b its true I am powerless to stop something going on beyond my immediate
control, this has always been a bad situation, my negitive beleifs run deep,
will it every stop, I am so scared, and dont think I know how to deal with
this and its making me feel so vulnerable.
but smoking never stopped a seizure before and sometimes I think it actually
made things worse. physicall sensations?
I sense my brainwaves shorting out and my musicels in arms and leggs, ready
to bolt, I want to run from this,
I am a not smoker now, some discomfort is part of the agreement, yes its
not good we have these problems but at the same time, a cigarette is truely
not an apporprieate response. blowing a quit over a seizure alt hough
could maybe be understood is not a good choice, instead I chose to beief
that smoking will not fix anythiing here.
I have taken the emergency valuim and two extra phenobarb and sleep should
come soon. meantime i can relax, listen to what my body is telling me, I
can help warren not to react in a harmful way. Warren doesnt know how to
fix this either so we will have to pay attention to each other now.
c I’m going to wait for meds to take effect, then sleep and try to get
control of these seizures. in two days I see the doc so its ok. and I’ll
listen close to inner voices, to intense needs and try to dechastrophize
whats reallygoing on, and distract a bit if necessary.
long abcs 
caisy