tomorrows ABC
Dear Warren,
Over the weekend I will have class room time. Don’t even wont to think about it
sitting in class for two days 8hour each day. This is lotst of stress for me as
I am physically very active ( in my job I move most of the day around except on
days wheere I work on the system) so sitting down all day long will be lots of
effort.
Warren, it also worries me a bit cause that was the major cause of my slips. I
couldnt’ concentrate in class any longer, we got lots of smoke breaks (every 45
minutes the teacher would say smoke break) and I got a smoke from on of my
friends and back I was to smoking. What a relief at this moment and wow I was
able to actual study (don’t ask for how I felt after I realized I am back to
smoking).
To avoid heavy cravings or a slip I came up with an ABC for the next two days
and hope it will guide us and give you proper responses. I don’t think I will
smoke this time as I still have my statement ( folded in my pocket and goes with
me every where) but I wont to decrease the triggers and panic thought as much as
possible. I also have you, and tomorrow we need some extra attention to what we
need….. sigh sigh sigh…..
A - my mind feels tiered, we finally get out on the air for a 10 minutes break,
sitting in class is so tierening, my body feels all jumpy I feel like running or
some kind of exercise my neck is hurting and I am close to get a headache
B - a ciggarettte will help it always helped, it will help me to concentrate
again, the smoke will calm me down and take the jumpy feeling out.
C - I wont to smoke
B1 - some push up would be good this will take the jumpy feeling out, some deep
breath enjoying the fresh air will provide me with oxygin and I will be able to
concentrate again, some neck stetches are good too, oh and since I am at it have
some water
C1 I’ll take some deep breath, do 10 push ups take some more deep breath while
doing some stretches, drink some water
So Warren, I hope you can accept the new responses and we have a good day
tomorrow.
Steve, Pam or anyone else who reads it, do you think Warren can accept that as
an appropriate non smoking response even so every one else around me will be
smoking?
Thanks for listening
Carmen