Cognitive Quit Smoking

Tomorrow is big day! I’m excited and scared,nervous,terrified. I have all my
lists, ABCs, etc. It’s been tough stepping away for a minute and try to get a
handle on the physical sensations of the feelings, but I’m working on it. My
big thing is closing all the “back doors” i.e I’m not going to smoke on a DAILY
basis, but I can smoke when I go out with my friends, or if I have a very
stressful day. I’m famous for “I’m going to buy a pack, smoke a few and throw
the rest away”. And, as we all know, that pack very rarely ever hits a trash can
until its empty. Those back doors are closed now. I know its easier to smoke
none than one. Cigs don’t help in ANY situation, and if they do anything it
only makes it worse. i have completely structured my life around smoking and i
waste 2 hours a day standing around, killing myself. That is time I could be
spending with my family or just relaxing in a constructive way.
My goal is to become a happy, energetic and effective mother. I don’t know any
truly happy smokers. I know that smoking is not conducive to my goal and,
therefore, will have to cease and desisit or I will just keep spinning my

wheels.
Kris

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