Archive for September, 2005

Smoking Dream/ABC on the fly

Sunday, September 25th, 2005

I had a smoking dream last night. it was so strange i was in a
friends house, in the kitchen. there it was loose on the counter, i
reached for it, looked at it in my hand and shouted NO WAY I’M NOT
DOING THIS NO F’ING WAY!!!!!!!!
i woke up all nerved up then realized i had refused to smoke in my
dream WOW!!!
this feels like some kind of breakthrough here, even deep inside of
me i don’t want one NO WAY.
well just had to share this
A now when i saw it in my hand B i literally stepped back sighed
and thot ok i’m here in my friends kitchen excited and feel like
celebrating!!! C so put on some music and had coffee and talked and
laughed and had our little celebration
i celebrated and didn’t smoke
this was amazing to me, when i awoke it sank in that i had done a
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ABC for fear of never smoking again

Sunday, September 25th, 2005

Hi all,
I am still struggling with the fear of never smoking again. Its like I am not
smoking and on some days I feel like smoking especially when I worked for a
while without a break and then there is this thought what I can never smoke
again no way I can be quit for a lifetime so might as well smoke. Not to smoke
ever again sounds so absolute that it just scarries me and causes to get even
worst urges. So when I talked with Marilyn in chat we came up with an ABC for it
and I found it works great. The ABC just changes the negative thought in
positive thought.
A) II am working and feel the urge to smoke and than it comes in my mind that I
decided never to smoke again not even one. I feel my heart reat going up and
telling myself no way I can make it for a lifetime. I start feeling panick and
cant concentrate.
B I think I just need a break a smoke break will take care of it since I can not
stay quit for a lifetime might as well smoke, doesnt make a difference one day
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icq..

Saturday, September 24th, 2005

‘morning all…
just wanted to let you know that i did get icq loaded and even talked
to ion for awhile on it..my id# is: 316422442
have a great day.
queenie*marilyn

woohoo..

Saturday, September 24th, 2005

loved to talk to you all in spinchat..i can’t believe i was on there
from 3pm to 8pm…joe finished supper and i ate…feel stuffed now. i
think i went too long between feeds..oh, well, tomorrow is another
day..i was aware that i was hungry and kept telling warren that it
wouldn’t be to much longer…and he didn’t tell me to smoke
instead..what a revelation!! lol
my msn messenger name is: marjoe2622@…
sablessecret@… think those are right…not to sure about
the msn one…but i have both of them on all the time because i have
dsl…if i don’t answer right away, it’s because i’m away from the
computer..or it might be easier if you give me your chat name and i
add it to mine…you would think i could get past newbie stage on
this thing…some of it is easier than others..anyway, if you want to
talk or need support just instant message me..i’m on and off all day
long..well, anytime from noon, est, to about 3am or so..
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New here and day 1

Friday, September 23rd, 2005

colette, you’re doing great!!! focusing hard on everything was what
worked for me, and it sounds like it’s working for you too — way to go!!
peg.

ok..how about this one?

Friday, September 23rd, 2005

almost to the end of day two…got bored, so had to do an abc for
that, too..
abc for boredom
a. i’m bored..
b. i’ll light up a cigarette to pass the time..whoa! i don’t smoke
anymore..i used to smoke cigs to give me something to do..now i can
choose to do something more healthy like crocheting another square
for my granny quilt or some of my other craft projects..or go dig in
my flower beds..or walk thru’ the woods.
c. yup, i’ll work on my granny quilt..
day two went pretty good..substituted food for cigaretts..seems like
i was hungry..probably been smoking instead of eating for all these
years, but it’s ok because i could stand to gain 10 pounds..had one
mt. dew this afternoon but didn’t smoke with it..big
test…lol…don’t seem to be craving nicotine real heavy..smoking
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short version of starting the day abc..

Wednesday, September 21st, 2005

a. waking up…i’m groggy
b. not alert..need a cigarette and a mt. dew to kick start me.
whoa! i choose not to smoke today..a shower would kick me up to
alert status.
c. i will shower to get me energized and make a cup of coffee.
ps..i am not a coffee drinker so i don’t associate it with
smoking..but i will still get a small jolt of caffeine so i don’t get
a caffeine withdrawal headache. my daughter warned me about them.
pss..steve…if you would rather i post the longer version of this
abc, let me know..i did this short one because it’s getting late.
marilyn

yup…

Wednesday, September 21st, 2005

hi,
i’m a half hour away from my first 24 hour day…didn’t go to badly
for what i planned except for the unexpected trip with my daughter to
look at a house…took me almost an hour to come to terms with that
because it threw off my schedule…missed half my breakfast.. :
( ….but i dealt with it and ended up not smoking..yay for me..
yes, i agree, that this is a much calmer way to quit..
anybody know an easy way how to get abc’s posted to here? i’ve done
them all in a sprial notebook in longhand…seems in imprint better
in my mind when i write things down..any suggestions?
one question…can we point people to this site?
well, two questions then..lol..how do you get your quit stats to show
up with your name at the end or doesn’t that work on his site?
well, heck, seeming i’m typing anyway, i’ll post this version of my
detox jitters abc:
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craves/urges/somethings

Wednesday, September 21st, 2005

Hi there here it is one month after my quit and I’m still getting
craves. I’m doing my ABC’s but there were times that I just couldn’t
get a handle on what was going on so I started logging the craves.
I found that the “crave” or “urge” usually lasted only seconds. The
thought flashed in an out so fast I could hardly recognize it.
However, the “I want ….something” usually lasted quite a bit
longer. Anywhere from 2 minutes (until I got distracted) or off and
on for a 1/2 hr. They usually only happen in the morning and I don’t
know what triggers it.
Anybody got any ideas what to do about it?
Marlene

montana update

Tuesday, September 20th, 2005

Hello everyone
I am happy to say that I have not been a smoker for over a month,
almost 3 weeks with out the patch, and I am seeing alot more
positives in my life as a result of it. I don’t post alot but I do
come into this site everyday. Cognitive Quit has allowed me quit
smoking and be happy with the idea of a life without smoking.
There are no white nuckles in my house. Thank You, Hank