Slip Admission (ABC)
This is not a normal ABC; it is more of an admission to slipping,
which we talked about last night, Steve. You know and I know that I
was not very smart to even allow the slip to happen, nor did it do me
any good. I thought about running this by you, but thought it would
be better to post in the group so others can see how by slipping
it’s not worth undoing all of the work and dedication that goes
into this process.
I feel lucky that I thought to talk to you about it and didn’t
assume because I had slipped it was ok for me to become a smoker
again. I do not want to be a smoker and have learned a very valuable
lesson from this. I wanted to say thanks for not berating me, but
for listening to how I was feeling:) I am back on track again.
I will work on lots of ABC’s and remind myself if I want to slip
again how I felt this time. The sad part is, that for this situation
I had prepared an ABC, but decided I didn’t want to use it. There was
no one around and no one would ever have to know I slipped……ha
ha Like I wouldn’t know. I’m the one it should matter to, not
anyone else.
`Poor Me’ too late ABC
A. `Poor me’, I’m alone in an empty house. I’m bored, my neck is
stiff from driving, my legs are sore from being in the car all day,
my head aches and I’m extremely tired. I’m upset and lonely.
B. After fighting an urge to smoke for over 6.5 hours and using
my ABC’s not to, I decide that a smoke won’t hurt, maybe even two.
Surely I can’t get addicted after two smokes, can I? It’s so much
easier to light up than to fight the urge or use the ABC’s you’ve in
place for this situation.
C. I smoke
b-1 I vowed to myself not to be a smoker again, and yet found myself
lighting up. It didn’t make me less lonely, less tired, less
sore or less anything. It made me mad that I would go there to begin
with. I begin to berate myself. Although it didn’t make me wake
up today with the urge to smoke, it was a real set back for me.
I should have never even had access to cigarettes. What a game to
play with yourself during this process. What a way to ruin a 17-day
quit.
c-1 I will not give into temptation again, I will find something to
keep me busy until the urge is over, go out for a walk, call someone
on the phone, take a nap, eat a snack, read, exercise. Lighting up
WILL NOT be and CAN NEVER be a part of my life. I will make sure to
never give myself permission or have access to cigarettes again.
If ever trying to justify a smoke again, I will do one or more of the
above items in c-1 before allowing a another slip to occur.