Introductions.
Hi Everyone,
Just a note to introduce myself. I have been hanging around this board for a
week or so and it does look like it has some good info and I can relate to
alot of it as I always felt I had difficulties with my mind when quitting as
opposed to physical sensations.
I am 31 years old I have a two and a half year old daughter and a baby son of
10 days. I have quit the cigarettes at least ten times my longest quit was 3
months and my shortest was a couple of hours. In my last quit (ended 4 weeks
ago) I went 8 weeks having read Alan Carrs easyway and I did not have one
single craving in that time. However on a trip, alone, I smoked during my first
crave. My reason I was alone drinking in a bar and felt really
ubcomfortable/self-conscious as a non smoker, yes it was my first visit to a bar
during that
quit. I woke the following day thinking thank goodness I don’t want a cig. Got
showered, dresses, walked outside bought cigarettes because I did not want to
have to deal with telling myself not to stop as I was on ‘holiday’. And I didn’t
deal with it for the next 4 weeks, whilst feeling terribly guilty, unhappy at
my decision.
I have not smoked for 2 days now, it is going good, I have had a couple of
urges (I don’t know if that is the right word) basically situations where I
forget for a second I smoked ie after a meal and then focus on remembering I
have
quit and doing something else and a couple of occassions thinking a cigarette
would be nice.
I have began the ABC lists, I don’t think I have given them the time yet for
me to fully understand them, but I will do this.
Anyway this is me and here I am, p.s. reasons for quitting: far too many to
list here but basically I know they will either kill me or physically destroy
me and I don’t want me or my family to go through that. I just wish the
intensity that I feel when writing that could stay with me 24/7 so when those
stupid
moments come further down the line I would treat them with the contempt they
deserved.
speak soon
shaun