the power of my fundation statement
I just had a hell of a day. An argument in the morning with a bus driver, at
work nothing but trouble, my throught is dry and my lungs are hurting and on top
of everything I had to cover PMO. .
I am very irritated and I want to smoke so badly that it is not fun. Cravings
plus cravings makes even more cravings.
I am not going to smoke. No No No — having said that I realized that I was
starting again to think of quiting as a hang in time, like hanging on to
something and hoping it goes away. So I sat back looked at my statement and
decided to make an ABC.
A — I am having a bad day, even a fly on the wall annoys me, I am irritated
and I am ready to jomp. physical sensation: my head feels like a ticking bomb
ready to explode, my heart rate is up and I feel like I am running. I am kind
like out of breath and all I can think of is smoking. My lungs are hurting for
some reason I can’t breath deeply.
B — I know a smoke will help, it will make the irritation away and I will be
able to respond in a more relaxed way. My heart rate would go back to normal. My
lungs are feeling like if I woke up in the morning during my smoking time, so if
I have a smoke the pain will go away. Oh I can taste the nice smoke.
C — I ‘ll go for a smoke
B1 the third part of my statemen says I know I will feel uncomfortable at times
and I feel like smoking but I will do the work. and find a way to deal with my
day in a nonsmoking way, I knew it was not going to be easy but I choosed not to
smoke I also know that I am only a week quit and it still will take time to
adjust. I also know that one smoke brings me back to more smokes. No matter what
I do smoking or not smoking I still will have to cover PMO. My lungs are only
going to stop hurting for a bit and by tomorrow I would wake up with the same
pain. So I rather struggle now with it and be patience until my lungs clear. So
I will use that time and just right some E-mails and just look it up as a nice
break from my job. Since I still have some time I will go in the wahroom do some
stretches, get some water to take with me and the two hours PMO wil fly.
C1 I’ll go in the wahroom, I fill up my water bottle and take some work with me
to make the time flying. Do some stretches and take deep breath and go in PMO
with a big smile. Let them wunder…
hope tomorrow is a better day.
have a good night.