Cognitive Quit Smoking

Hi all,
after a night of thinking and thinkin how to get out of the situatuon I have
brought myself into I hardly got any sleep, but worse of all the first thing in
the morning I felt like smoking and the cravings are still there. My stomach is
all crunched up and I can’t even think about eating. I know it’s not going to
get better once I am at work unless my boss is off today. I know I should
appologize but I am not sure what to explain to him “I am insane and I wrote
that E-mail cause I couldn’t smoke and simply lost it”.
Anyway I decided to make an ABC for today so that I stay of the smokes.
A I am all nervous just thinking that I am going to pass my boss, and I feel
like running away, I can feel my heart is pounding (like it is right now), my
stomach is crunched up and hurting, and I am very irretated and jumpy I can’t
even look my boss straight in the eyes I know I desapointed him.
B I want to smoke so badly all the feelings would go away and I probably would
be able to think of an answer what to tell my boss. My funny stomach and my

heart rate would go back to normal, If I don’t get to smoke again I will screw
up again.
C I go and smoke
B1 No smoking is not an Option, this situation is nor reason for me to smoke. I
know it will be tough
though today, but I brought myself into it and I have to get out of it too.
Smoking is not making this E-mail unwritten, neither will it get an apology to
my boss. If I pick up that smoke I want right now I will feel worse. (here I am
running out of arguments cause junkie thinking is telling me I can’t make it
worse than it already is) Okay I think deep breath right now will help to bring
my heart rate down. If that doesn’t help take the stairs or just avoid seeing my
boss and hide somewhere in my office
C1 I take deep breath and take the stairs.
I just hope that ABC works other wise I will have to use my statement lots of
times and will have a big hang in there day.. sigh sigh….
But I am not going to smoke no matter what happens or how I feel.
greetings Carmen

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