ABC’s all day long
What a nasty day. I had chance after chance to practice non-smoking
responses to stressful situations, then between stressors I needed to
figure out if it was a physical or emotional cause to the desire to
smoke, and remind myself of my foundation statement at least 3 or 4
different times. Recite Pat’s “Junkie Thinking” at least 8 or 9
times, especially the part about “I never wanted just one. I wanted
20 or 30 a day.” By the end of the day I am very tired, but still
very non-smoking. It wasn’t that felt like I had a crack in my non-
smoking resolve that could become a cave-in, but that it was a great
deal of work to be in the middle of stress at work, plus having to re-
examine my former routine responses to such events, and come up with
alternative ways of looking at it and responding to it. It was like
working 2 jobs at once.
I wrote once before about all these “firsts” and this was the first
time I have dealt with a very high stress day at work without
nicotine.
I spent some time writing in my journal and listing out the day in an
ABC type of layout, and it really helped get it into a better
perspective. It turned out way too long to post, but way to good not
to save for myself.
I don’t think I would have made it through the day without the
knowledge that I’ve gained here.
Thanks.
Word.