Archive for February, 2006

ABC on screaming grandchildren

Monday, February 20th, 2006

A-My grandchildren are screaming and crying at the tops of their lungs
because their mother went to the store
B-A cigarette helps calm me
C-I want a cigarette
B1-I am tense and angry. My head is starting to hurt. My shoulders, jaw
muscles and the back of my neck are tense. My insides feel like they are going
to explode because I want to start screaming too and my eyes are watering
because frustration is starting to be added to the other emotions. My entire
body
is tense and my teeth hurt from clamping them together.
C1-I could smoke but that is not an option as I will abide my Foundation
Statement so I can stretch my shoulders to ease the tension, put my chin toward
my chest to loosen my shoulder muscles and relax my jaw so I stop clamping my
teeth together, I can send the 6 year old to his room so I can calm the 2
year old and put on some Christian music to relax my mind and get rid of the
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unsubcribe

Monday, February 20th, 2006

take me off the e-mail please
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The Road Less….

Sunday, February 19th, 2006

Whether your new or not…I cant thank my teachers; Steve, Pam and
CognitiveQuitting friends enough. For showing and explaing to me; THE
ROAD LESS TRAVELED (sorry for the caps). All these years I took the
Regular Road (the one with the SIGNS), dont get me wrong in any of
this. I spent at least a thousand dollars on NRT’s (there are many),
hypnosis, acupuncture, stop smoking tea, reflexology, seminars,
useless books, useless advise, if I could have found a Witch Doctor,
I would have paid again. A road traveled by many. I took it, got me
nowhere and cost money. Like a toll booth, everytime you go
through… With COGQUIT; I HAVE NOT SPENT A PENNY, not one penny. I
have paper and pen. The information is on the web, thanks to Steve.
The only cost is time. It is paying off with interest. Each day I
look forward; a new experience(s), life lesson(s). Doing the
foundation statement, 3 lists, ABC’s, time. I wont do the details.
If you are new, like me, you will learn so much. It took work and
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taste of tar

Sunday, February 19th, 2006

Lately been getting what I thought was nicotene taste but am
learning is tar taste in back of throat. Anyone else getting that?
Have an ABC handy?
A - Taste of tar, triggers physical withdrawal feeling in throat and
neck, shallow breathing, or breathless, tense and antzy)
B - use to light up, get a deep breath, relax only to be annoyed
again in 20 minutes
C - Taste of tar means my lungs are trying to heal, take a deep
breath and relax, slow down and concentrate accomplishing something
i.e. this time finish filing, get cup of hot decaf tea and relax.
Pam and anyone else out there I need help on my ABC please :<)
donna

ABC for boredom at work/ India

Sunday, February 19th, 2006

Thank you for your suggestions. I have been keeping the hourly journal and
have no problem describing the emotions I felt during the hour but am having a
hard time getting the physical parts.
I can’t believe how out of touch with my feelings I am. Your suggestions
have really helped me understand what I need to be paying attention to and my
hourly journal is going a lot better.
I haven’t quit yet so am able to do the ABCs before hand. The one on boredom
at work really helped last night as I was able to resist the urge to go
outside all the time and smoke a cigarette. There are so many things I want and
need to do ABCs on but think it will be a lot easier after keeping the journal
for a few days so I can better understand and describe the feelings that
accompany the emotions.
Steve went over all of this with me a few nights ago and I thought I
understood it then but am slow to totally catch on. Doing all of it now before
I quit
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I’m sorry

Saturday, February 18th, 2006

Dear Pam and cog friends,
I am so sorry, I wasnt meaning to take anything out on anyone. I
didnt know there was a hat in the air, let alone that it was about to
drop. It was a just a word that I had to look up and when I did, I
saw me (failure). I know it really isnt so. It struck me (sneak
attack). I felt that I had not been totally honest with you and that
is why I fessed up on being ADD/ADHD. This is a place of honesty. I
have kept it secret. I have kept my quit secret as well. Word - I am
happy for you and your husband and that you both are doing well, and
your son is doing well. In the sixties they didnt know about ADD let
alone; the kids do grow up. My husband has to help me, I dont sign
anything legal without him. I have felt like a burden. Word there is
no “only” to Sixteen Days. You know what it takes to add up those
days and what you have learned. I remember a time when I couldnt
make it a day. I’m sure we all had that happen. Tell you a story,
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my confession

Saturday, February 18th, 2006

I am crying; it is my own fault. You have all been very kind. I see
everything good in this web-site and in these posts. Pam you and I
have not met, no one here really knows anything about me. I dont
mind tweaking, and I dont mind deleting. I dont want anyone to feel
sorry for me. I dont understand certain things, the difference
between physical and psychological things (some might think they are
the same sensation) when they are actually different. Emotional and
Mental Symptoms could feel the same by a person. Someone might not
be able to decipher the difference. The word pain, some people do
not know how to describe what pain feels like to their Doctor. Sharp
or stabbing. My point - I am learning just like a lot of people. I
had to look up the word refute. To prove wrong or false. I am self
taught. If you were to ask me which way is England I would not be
able to answer you. If one were to ask me about a childrens book I
would not know the answer. I cannot write a correct sentence and it
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ABC for weigh gain

Saturday, February 18th, 2006

Ok - here is my ABC for those extra quit pounds…..
A. I am gaining weight.
B. I have been up and down my whole life and now I am up again! I
should be a size 4 and I am now well into 8/10. I feel bloated,
sluggish, self-conscience, and embarrased. My muscles ache,
especially my ankles and shins, and my lower back from the extra 20
pounds. If I smoke, I will not be eating as much. Smoking will curb
my appetite.
C. I want to smoke.
B1. Oh come on….you started gaining this weight a year ago - while
you were still smoking, so don’t blame it on the quit :) I don’t
exercise regularly and it is a fact that your metabolism slows when
you quit smoking - but also as you age. I am 46 years old and as I am
aging, my metabolism is slowing also. So the combination of age and
lack of regular exercise is the cause of the weight gain.
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Lauren!

Friday, February 17th, 2006

I am going to woo hoo you anyways! I can’t believe a month has gone
by on your quit. I can’t believe I am on two months. Totally
amazing to me. However did that time go by when it seems I am aware
in some fashion or the other that I am not smoking. and Word!
I am going to have to do some work on ABC on some of my feelings
right now, seems I am going through and anger, aggravated stage
which I believe is ‘normal’ for me so haven’t figured out how to
keep mouth shut. :<0 oops :<) donna

not a good start…..an ABC solution

Friday, February 17th, 2006

A I wake up, my husband and I have a misudestanding, I am angry.
B I am upset, anxious, holding my tongue, cant breath, the
conversation went on for five minutes or more, I am gettng sick to my
stomach, this is going to be with me the rest of the morning, he left
for work so I am stuck with this. I have become mad on top of my
anger.
C I normally would have smoked not one but two cigarettes and than I
would have called him on his cell phone and smoked even more. The
problem would still be there.
B1 I wait for a rational moment when I can think, I get me some juice
(I am not used to something nutritional), I ride my bike for a few
minutes, thinking. I realize my husband has no idea what I am going
through. He was frustrated just like me. The difference is his
nicotine level had dropped, he still smokes. I am learning my ABC’s.
Normally we would call when he gets to work and we would both be
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