Digest Number 1107
Thursday, August 31st, 2006It makes a lot of sense that the ‘thought’ of quitting is worse than the quitting. I am planning to quit on Jan 1st. And I am spending too much time ‘thinking’ about how I think I’m going to feel. Today, for example, I wanted a cigarette at work so bad that my mouth became extremely dry. So if this was an ABC, would I say, or write, Its been an hour since I had a cigarette. My mouth is so dry. I feel a little tense and anxious. A smoke would sure be nice.
But instead, I should just get a nice glass of ice water and sit and take a few breaths.
Now, what I’m worried about (and I’m not even there yet!) is the tense feeling not going away…and not being able to stop thinking about smoking. I can see it now…other employees or customers are trying to talk to me and I can’t focus because I want to smoke!
in past attempts I would talk a lot about how much I wanted a cigarette, so people would tell me you have to try to stop thinking about it. Like I read in the files…thats really not possible.
So…with this cognitive quitting…will my mind stop thinking this way?
Also…I’ve been on wellbutrin since May…my last quit. Should I just stop taking it since it won’t feel like something new. Sorry…I’m rambling!
Sheila