won’t you pleeeze pleeze help me.
I ‘m a lawyer- I know the logic. I’m a litigator - I know the medicine. I understand the brain chemistry. I’ve been reading everybody’s Emails. I’m on week three and I’m suddenly pretty much frantic. Can’t remember the reasons, the logic, the medicine, barely my name. I am taking deep breaths and chewing gum. And, actually, I hate to put any of you to the trouble, because I know the ritual AND the reason. I just can’t seem to find it right now. L
September 16th, 2006 at 6:29 pm
today’s been rough for me 2 weeks in and I don’t have a clue why not much has changed and i’ve been doing all I can to stay motivated and think each craving through just thought i’d let you know your not alone
September 17th, 2006 at 11:30 am
In a message dated 01/13/2005 8:23:59 PM Eastern Standard Time, INMIANDSINGLE@… writes:
today’s been rough for me 2 weeks in and I don’t have a clue why not much has changed and I’ve been doing all I can to stay motivated and think each craving through just thought I’d let you know your not alone
In a message dated 01/13/2005 8:23:59 PM Eastern Standard Time, INMIANDSINGLE@… writes:
today’s been rough for me 2 weeks in and I don’t have a clue why not much has changed and I’ve been doing all I can to stay motivated and think each craving through just thought I’d let you know your not alone
Thank you. I know some will say I’m not doing it right. Everyone will say that. I am doing it though — perhaps for the right or wrong reasons. It MUST be made, by me, and us, tolerable, however. Sometimes, I try to think how it might be for my horse. Back in the old cocaine (old, old days), did the horses get addicted when they were given it to run faster? If not, why not. One obvious answer, because I know my particular very lovable and reliable steed who has been mine for 19 years, is that he’s not smart enough to get addicted, but obviously, that’s not right. But why me and not him. Why NOW, me and not him? L
September 17th, 2006 at 6:45 pm
Thank you Mrs.Decker very much. I will try that I think. I am, however, somewhat averse to running, per se, except on horseback. Actually, and this is obscene, I was able to, on this same horse, light up and still go at a full gallop — we were that steady. Anyway, running on the street worries me, thought of it makes me feel desperate. I think I can’t outrun the thing. Is there a way to face it — without running. I have not smoked — or “backslided” as some might put it — this may be a purely mental exercise - Steve - thoughts on this? L
September 17th, 2006 at 11:23 pm
Hi L,
I haven’t quit yet, my quit date is Monday, January 17th. But I have quit several times and I know what you are going through. The last time I knew the logic, medicine and the brain chemistry, but I just wanted a cig so bad I didn’t care. As soon as I took that first puff, I found myself suffering from shortness of breath, a racing heart and dizziness. I kept smoking for another couple of months and now when I feel the way you do now, I am going to remind myself how I felt with that first cig. We all want to live long and healthy lives. Good luck to you and let me know how you are doing. Alice
On Thu, 13 Jan 2005 19:29:02 EST sylviaed@… writes:
I ‘m a lawyer- I know the logic. I’m a litigator - I know the medicine. I understand the brain chemistry. I’ve been reading everybody’s Emails. I’m on week three and I’m suddenly pretty much frantic. Can’t remember the reasons, the logic, the medicine, barely my name. I am taking deep breaths and chewing gum. And, actually, I hate to put any of you to the trouble, because I know the ritual AND the reason. I just can’t seem to find it right now. L
September 18th, 2006 at 7:41 am
When all else seems to fail, when the reasons are a blank and the logic has
come unraveled… there are ONLY 2 questions to remember…
1- What does my body feel?
2- What can I do to address those feelings?
That’s it. That’s all. Just take care of your body. The reasons will
become apparent, the logic will reconstruct, and the rest will come
together. It may take a while, and chances are you’ll be unhappy,
uncomfortable, and confused through it all. But just take care of your body.
Having said that, there is work that was to have been done initially that
taught you how to pinpoint just what your body feels and where. Dig out
your timer logs. If you’ve not entered them into your computer, please do
so and send them either to the group or to me. If you’ve yet to do the
Timer Exercise, then you’ve missed an important step. Do it now.
September 18th, 2006 at 4:30 pm
Dear Steve - I’ve done it, but it doesn’t seem to be coming out the same, perhaps because of my medical past. I am not saying that I do not feel things, or even that I don’t feel them the same way. I think that maybe he bizarreness (and rare it was) of what I had has, has thrown off, in some respects, my ability to connect with that you refer to. But maybe not — here’s the dish รข adenocarcinod of appendix mets to intra abdominally. Very OK now, but I’m not sure what’s brain and what’s not and why in the world anyway I want to spend hours on whether my shoulders are tight. I do need to stop, however. Sorry for being botchy - I hope you’ll understand. L:
September 19th, 2006 at 5:26 am
Dear L,
Steve
September 19th, 2006 at 2:15 pm
I am very sorry for my bitchy and evasive response. I will try to improve. Thank you for your kindness and tolerance. L
September 30th, 2006 at 2:23 am
YES!!! What she wrote!!!!
Thanks Pam
and congrats on your 15+ months quit.
Steve