Timed smoking and gradual cutdown…Help!

I have been working with a small computer type thing to reduce the
number of ciggaretts smoked each day. I am also dieting. Have been for
nearly a year. I have only lost 33 pounds in that year but I have seen
significant body changes for the good. I have also been working out for
3 years. 2 years in water areoibecs and one year of very hard work in
the gym. When I gradduated to the gym I started to see results. I have
been on the timed program of ciggarette smoking for 8 days now. It is
driving me crazy. Counting the minutes to my next smoke. I want
desperatly to be a non smoker but I also despertly want to lose another
30 pounds. Today after five minutes at the gym I became so despondent I
came home crying and drank a pot of coffee and smoked my head off.
I am scared to death to quit, and I am scared to death not to quit.
It would kill me to regain any weight I have worked so hard this past
year to lose. (I am on a medication which causes weight gain) so taking
that into considration I am very proud of my 30 pound loss.

I know so many of my family and friends who either have cancer or have
died from cancer. It ses me to death. I am female and I have been
smoking since the tender age of 11. I am now 57…..Thanks for listening

5 Responses to “Timed smoking and gradual cutdown…Help!”

  1. wilmer_2 Says:

    Hi Steve
    You are sooo right! When I’ve tried to quit in the past, besides the
    ‘brain fog’ I’ve always experienced an empty, hungry feeling which is’nt
    relieved
    by food. I don’t get angry…maybe irritable, especially if someone keeps
    talking to me for a day or two, because I want to be quiet! I go ‘in’ on
    myself a bit until the ‘brain fog’ has passed.
    Tonight, I’ve been remembering how hard I worked to become a smoker. At
    that stage I never knew I would get addicted, I did’nt realise nicotine was a
    drug.
    I think we have to learn to be a non smoker, just the same as we had to
    learn to become one. When I get withdrawals I’m going to try to think that it
    is because I’m coming off a drug, but also the effects of my body starting to
    repair itself. I’m expecting my body and mind to rebel like a child having a
    tantrum! When my son was small and had tantrums I did’nt fight with him, I

    relaxed and waited for him to come out of it, and maybe that’s the way to
    deal with withdrawals!
    I have 2 ciggs left and I would like to think I won’t buy any more. I
    don’t want to. I may put a patch by the bed and put it on as soon as I wake
    and
    see how I go. Sometimes, if you expect the worst it is’nt so bad, if you
    know what I mean? But that does’nt mean I won’t get withdrawals, you can’t get
    around that one!
    Having to smoke to feel ‘normal’ is like being in a prison, except that a
    part of you thinks you like the prison because it’s secure and you’ve become
    institutionalised (excuse spelling, it’s 3.30am!).
    I’ll check in tomorrow even if I don’t say much!
    Take care
    Sue

  2. Adam Vaughn Says:

    I agree Sue. I couldn’t handle that. You’re always waiting for when you can
    smoke.
    Donna

  3. Araceli Cherry Says:

    Hi again Sue
    I really agree with you - we do need to learn how to be nonsmokers. You’ll find
    cogquitting will teach you how to recognise your true cues to smoke and give you
    the tools to respond to life differently. This is why cogquitting is so
    incredibly effective - we’re not simply trying to deal with the nicotine
    addiction - we’re examining the whole picture i.e. our smoking behaviour. Spend
    a day or so doing the timer exercise, and you’ll be suprised how quickly you
    start to get in tune with what your body really needs, and can begin work to
    disconnect the smoking associations
    Just been reading all of last nights posts - looks like you’re a fellow Brit?
    I’m just outside Preston - whereabouts are you? The group chats during the week
    tend to be late on -altho’ it sounds like you’re a bit of a night owl :) If
    you want to meet up in the chatroom or have one of the IM’s (I’ve got them all)
    just let me know and we can fix something up
    Pam

    Sue wrote:-
    Hi Steve
    You are sooo right! When I’ve tried to quit in the past, besides the
    ‘brain fog’ I’ve always experienced an empty, hungry feeling which is’nt
    relieved
    by food. I don’t get angry…maybe irritable, especially if someone keeps
    talking to me for a day or two, because I want to be quiet! I go ‘in’ on
    myself a bit until the ‘brain fog’ has passed.
    Tonight, I’ve been remembering how hard I worked to become a smoker. At
    that stage I never knew I would get addicted, I did’nt realise nicotine was a
    drug.
    I think we have to learn to be a non smoker, just the same as we had to
    learn to become one. When I get withdrawals I’m going to try to think that
    it
    is because I’m coming off a drug, but also the effects of my body starting to
    repair itself. I’m expecting my body and mind to rebel like a child having a
    tantrum! When my son was small and had tantrums I did’nt fight with him, I
    relaxed and waited for him to come out of it, and maybe that’s the way to
    deal with withdrawals!
    I have 2 ciggs left and I would like to think I won’t buy any more. I
    don’t want to. I may put a patch by the bed and put it on as soon as I wake
    and
    see how I go. Sometimes, if you expect the worst it is’nt so bad, if you
    know what I mean? But that does’nt mean I won’t get withdrawals, you can’t
    get
    around that one!
    Having to smoke to feel ‘normal’ is like being in a prison, except that a
    part of you thinks you like the prison because it’s secure and you’ve become
    institutionalised (excuse spelling, it’s 3.30am!).
    I’ll check in tomorrow even if I don’t say much!
    Take care
    Sue

  4. wilmer_2 Says:

    I think it makes the addiction worse, Donna. because it makes those ciggs
    very attractive.
    How are you doing today?
    Sue

  5. wilmer_2 Says:

    Hi Pam
    Yes, I’m a fellow Brit…I’m in Plymouth, Devon. I rarely go to bed before
    3am, I’ve always been an owl :-) Smoking behaviour is interesting. When you read about it you realise it’s
    not just giving up the nicotine, like you say, it’s the whole picture. The
    majority of the ciggs I lit up burned away in the ashtray! It was like a
    ritual to keep one burning.
    I ran out of ciggs at about 3.30am and, so far I hav’ent bought any. My
    mind feels a bit ‘fuddled’ and I feel sleepy, but I can’t say I’ve craved to
    smoke yet. I’ve thought of it when I’ve had a coffee, it was like, ‘oh, I
    usually have a cigg now’, but I did’nt think ‘I’ve got to have one’. I know
    it’s early and things can change though.
    I’m going to study the site later, I only had a quick read yesterday.
    Sue

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