two years quit
My main weapon was a recording of myself on New Year’s Eve at
midnight. I told myself why I wanted to quit on the tape. I also
hacked and coughed the way we do when we’ve been smoking all day. I
cried and told myself to “lookin the mirror. Is your a** falling off?
No, then you better not pick up that cigarette!” It has been the
hardest thing I have ever done. 30 years of smoking and I had tried
three times prior. I am actually fearful of smoking again. I am on
meds for PTSD from childhood crap. The meds were actually working on
the symptoms of PTSD. As a result I lost weight, started exercising,
quit smoking and was feeling pretty good until we ran out of money and
I had to go back to work full time. Anyway, now I am working in a full
time job, have three children ages 30 to 5 and a full time husband of
24 years (he’s so set in his ways)! I am not taking the imte for me
and my body! I can’t go back to smoking and I don’t think I can handle
a twelve step program right now; I am glad I found this group and plan
to visit Steve’s site asap. Jo