Why I disappeared…
I recently received an e-mail asking why I disappeared when I signed
up. I did all the work. I found out my cues and made appropriate
responses. I understood the material and did the work. I did it
from the beginning several times.
I guess the reason I disappeared is the same reason I can’t seem to
hang on to a quit. I don’t KNOW!
I’ve been struggling with this for a couple years. Tried EVERYTHING
and I mean ALL of the ways available to quit. Am I waiting for a
magic cure? It seems to be my only chance.
I don’t know how many of you watch survivor…but there was a
contestant on there who quit Cold Turkey on the show who was a 3
pack a day for 20 years smoker. He was crazy! That is how I get…
I have a family, a job, responsibilities. I can’t afford to be
going crazy. I’ve tried it and paid for it later.
I’m sorry, but I’m afraid nothing is going to help me. Don’t think
I haven’t tried or committed to quitting. Because I have. Like I
said in my current life situation there is no room for me to be
losing my cool or mind. I’ve worked for 10 years to get where I
am. Which isn’t far, but 10 years ago I was depressed working 2
jobs and eating canned soup cold. I can’t and won’t put what I have
in jepordy.
That may sound crazy, because in a way I’ll lose it anyway when
these sticks finally kill me. At least I won’t have to live through
the loss then.
I anyone has any hope to hand me I’ll gladly give it my all. For
now I feel I’m out of options….
Sincerely,
Tennielle