Hi I’m new and need your help
Hi,
I have been a smoker for 30 years. My parents never smoked and I hid
it from them for many years, or at least I thought I did.
I really want to quit! Over the course of the past year I have
said “this will be my last carton”. But when it seems that the more
I want to quit, the more I smoke. In fact I have now become a chain
smoker. I just don’t understand why.
My sons have always nagged me about quitting and they constantly
complain about how our home smells of smoke. They are in sports and
have been accused by coaches of smoking because sometimes their
clothes smell of smoke. Even though I am embarassed by this, I still
continue to smoke and make excuses.
Two years ago I had pneumonia and was hospitalized for a week. No
Smoking! My chest x-rays dumbfounded the doctor and me. My heart
and lungs were in great shape. They even did them twice to confirm.
Well, this information only gave me ammunition that I was a heavy
smoker and doing fine. I know I should have counted my blessings and
quit then. But I didn’t. Now I notice that when I go up and down
the stairs for laundry, I can barely catch my breath. It is time to
Stop!
I have once again set a quit date of Feb 28th, my deceased mother’s
bithday. I really want to do it this time. But already I am feeling
that fear, the fear of losing my crutch.
Thank you so much for listening. Any advice and support would be
much appreciated.
Thank you
Spring